Hi Sundance,

Thanks for your reply.

The thing I'm beginning to understand-reading all this, is how much my inner self have died, given up a long time ago, and how I've become quite cynical about my life.

I have to reconfigure my "hard disk coco", I'm not used to that, it's quite promising and scary at the same time.

I've been waiting 6 months to see my new psychiatrist, so in the meantime, this forum gives me a support of great value.

Take care,

Starbuck

Born in 1963 of French mom and Canadian dad. Studied a lot (Majors in History, Theology, M.A. in Sociology). Jobless for now. Just been diagnosed Borderline.

I wonder where it will go from here... But I'll try nonetheless.