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Originally Posted by doggiedo
I hate myself so much. I look so put together when I'm at work or in public. I can barely get through the day. I want to just curl up and die. It would be easier. I hate existing. I hate how I make others feel and the pain that I cause.
I just want it to all go away.
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Ugh...I know just how you feel. I have to put on the happy face every day, and each morning it gets to be more of a chore to do so. But I still think it beats that alternative. I think of the things that I enjoy in life -which are admittedly harder to discover in the throes of depression.
As for causing others pain, I don't think we can cause another person something like that. I really think it is their responsibility and their reaction that defines their pain. Otherwise, someone else would be able to make you feel better. I hope that makes sense. And i do hope that it gets easier for you.
