Thanks Everyone for your advice and support. All of these problems are so hard for me to handle. I feel so alone, so ashamed of how i acted, I was so out of control, caused chaos all over the place...so nervous about whats going to happen in the future (jail/homeless/my child etc). I can barely function. I dont understand how i could act like a completely different person and destroy so much of my life, that it feels impossible to fix.