Hi! I'm new to this and hope that this will hellp me. I've lived with severe depression since I was a child. Mainly due to abuse. The last 13 yrs. have been unbearable. I hate myself. I feel I should be able to control the depression. I have no friends. I'm a bore to be around. I lay around most of the time. It's a real problem to push myself to get up and do anything. I feel so lazy and unproductive. Sort of worthless. I had one bipolar/schizo affective episode and so afraid it will happen again.
I go to a psyciatrist and on meds,but they don't seem to help at all. They tell me I need to get out of the house and be with people. I have no place to go plus it takes all my energy to get out of the house. I don't like being alone but at the same time I don't feel like gettinng out of the house.
I feel so alone in this. People just don't get it and don't want to hear about it.