(((LostLamb)))

I've always had major depression and self-hate myself. It's a big struggle! The friends or colleagues that I made in school are all long-gone now. Anyway, I can relate.

It doesn't sound as though you're seeing a therapist. Is that right? For me, therapy is essential! I did discover that early in life. That's one plus in my childhood. I'd definitely recommend getting in to see a T once a week, and ask if there are support groups in your area. You can check out this site for information. http://www.nami.org

Support groups can help a lot too! I've been in a couple of groups in my life so far. Some people stay in support groups their entire lives, which is a possibility. Others come and go when they need it (the majority). And a few avoid support groups as much as possible (or entirely).

Support groups do want to hear what's going on ~ the trick is that sometimes people go off in a tangent about their problems. Group leaders try not to let that occur often, but it does happen occasionally. That can be pretty frustrating when you've got a lot on your mind that you were hoping to talk about, and this person took up almost the entire amount of group time that session. I've been there too.

I hope that things improve for us both very soon! Oh, and to PC!