((((Rose))))

I grew up in SoCal, I know the area that you're dealing with pretty well. The traffic there is so stressful in itself! I can't imagine driving back and forth through that daily. UGH! Are you pretty much stuck with this one company, or are there others like it elsewhere?

I can really relate to what you're going through ~ most of can...right? Otherwise, we wouldn't be here crying to one another. I have a bf IRL but he does NOT understand my state of mind. Doesn't understand the problems that I've had in the past or present, so I feel worse than alone. While he is occasionally able to get me out of my funk, I end up feeling guilty. Either I drank to loosen up or spent money that I don't have to cheer myself up. Neither are healthy! Back to more self-hate and kicking. Bad cycle continues.

I wish that I could help you feel a little better ~ I really wish that I could think of something! My mind is just like oatmeal right now, big pile of mush. Just wanted you to know that I do care about you & wish that you weren't suffering so badly. Gentle hugs to you....