oh dear! what did she say to you?

i have pushed my T on his boundaries in a way. for clarity i'll sort of transcribe what happened

me: have you ever been in therapy?
T: no
me: don't you have to, for your job?
T: yes, i will soon but i haven't yet. i'm looking forward to it though
me: what would you talk about ?(this was in reference to me always thinking he's this perfect sane person without problems)
T: whatever is going on at the time, my thoughts, feelings. same as you
me: ok but what specifically? what are your thoughts and feelings
T: (laughs) that's not why we're here! i can be open about my mental state with you but only when it's about you, i tell you what i think about you and my feelings about the things you say but you're not here to learn about me.
me: but i'm curious!!
T: (laughing) i know, maybe because that makes me seem more real to you?
me: we're talking about me again
T: exactly!

it was very lighthearted but i was pushing him on purpose to see what, if anything he'd give away. i have in my head that he's never sad or angry or has any problems which obviously can't be true. but i almost can't believe it til i hear it. plus when you know you're not supposed to know about someone's personal thoughts it makes you that bit more curious doesn't it?