I became less and less active over the years. Things I enjoyed doing in the past I simply don't feel like doing anymore.

I've stayed inside for years now. Mainly because I wasn't interested in the outside world and social situations. And because of that, I grown to be extremely lazy. I always coaxed my dad into doing things for me and now he's gotten used to it. He enables me to be lazy more and more and then gets on my case that that I don't do anything. Can you believe the double standard?

Anyways, I frequently get pissed and even start whining a bit if I have to do something as simple as taking out the trash out or taking the laundry upstairs. Staying on the computer, eating junk or ordering out, and laying in my bed is mainly what I do day after day and I get moody if that routine is changed. Often, I find my way back to it somehow, whether that means by self-excuses (Oh, well it's not that important anyways...), or lying.

I've gotten by for a while, but now I'm coming to the age where I'm expected to take care of myself-- meaning to get a job, house/apartment, car, insurance and so on. And people are staring to catch on. When asked why I stay in my room all day and don't go out, I give them the usual "Because I don't feel like it," response. Usually they get pissed because that's my only response.

Looking back, I feel ashamed of all the things I could've done if I had the energy or motivation to do them. Like joining a sports team, an art club or even making friends. My dad is upset that I don't get out and do stuff that I like. It's not that I don't want to do them, is that I don't feel like doing them.

I always hear old people feeling saddened over the stuff they could've done when they were younger, well I'm saying this as a teen and I'm scared a little.

Any suggestions?


Thanks.