Sorry you're feeling so down. I feel exactly the same way you do right now and in fact I have felt like that for a few years with not much relief. I wish I knew some magic tip to give you so you could feel better, But I dont know of any. I wish there was something, anything, we could do to not believe the lies we tell ourselves. I haven't found out how and I'm still convinced that I am hearing the truth. I believe my distorted thoughts from depression about myself and that just makes everything worse but how do you not believe what seems so true? I'm trying to just take deep breaths when I have a bad thought and I'm having so many I'm afraid I'll hyperventilate from all those deep breaths........ LOL ......... but again, breeeaaathheeee . gotta keep trying........ you gotta keep trying too. Maybe together through talking about these things we can help each other through them........