Hello Visalissa, I'm sorry you are hurting so much. My experience is that while many people do not understand there are people who do. I certainly understand what you are saying, and I have felt much of what you shared about. And when I am depressed there is nothing that I find less helpful than someone saying "cheer up" or "stop being depressed". There's an assumption there that we have some kind of power over this illness. We can't stop being depressed any more than someone could stop having cancer. I do hope those websites Lee put up for you provide you with some way to get some help. Depression is very treatable, and if not treated can be very damaging. I wish you well and thanks for sharing this on here.