thats a brilliant question Clinte!

paranoia when it's peaking is like being chained to a chair in a haunted cinema with your eyelids glued open.

not only is the movie in your face and unpredictable but the ghosts of insecurity are sitting right beside you and not sharing their popcorn not being very nice!

all rational thought combined just a milliscrap is enough to know better but the immediate circumstances don't change and it's hell anxiety cos the input is so overwhelming.

so what to do in the meantime? full on question I wish I knew I try to reflect on what I have done at similar times and after so many of these events I got pissed off and instead of panicking I got angry and told all the lies to leave me the hell alone I don't and I won't believe them anymore and it's a fight to keep it up but you are right it does pass and I have to get my own popcorn..

sorry I don't know how to write normal...