I grieved a year before my mother died as I had lost her the way she was. When she passed I felt a real sense of joy come over me. I knew it was gods time not mine and he had her where she needed to be. It was a weird feeling though as I felt maybe people would look at me strange for feeling that way, but they didn't. It's a feeling of never ending love and of unselfish love which is very special to feel. You are special!