keeping to my promise to myself-- no emotional escaping-- no drinking, no pot, god forbid if I got my hands on some stronger drugs like coke... no.. i have too much to lose and I need to find away to cope with how i feel on certain subject with a certain person. i just want to get away from this "reality" that i have to be put through. art is not interesting right now- I doubt i can sit still for that long, ranting on pages i write does not help I just get more angry/upset. My head hurts, i have already taken some "excdrine" like over the counter migraine pills- but i will not break my promise to myself. It wont do any good with how i feel right now