I suffer from social phobia, although never really been diagnosed with it, I just call it that because I'm pretty untrusting of new people and IRL I tend to not associate with people readily. I think a lot of it stems from my family history.

The worst of the memories I have is of my older brother, who really was regarded as the "god" of the family. I was trained to regard him as such but the problem was that i was not regarded with any kind of respect by him and it defeated me over and over again til I gave up. I guess I suffer from self esteem issues too. I was rarely referred to by name but instead derogatory names related to my physical appearance. It became a game. I would attempt to "hang out" with the cool kids, my brother and his friends but it would quickly turn into a session of making me a butt of their jokes.

Anyone else deal with this growing up? Could this be the reason for my distrust in people?