I've failed in keeping quiet. I'm so sorry. I shouldve have came on here and read the strong wise words before I did anything.
I went round and ended up just venting everything to him about what hes doing and how hes takign it all out on me. I know i've just pushed him further away now, but i feel so helpless. He says he doesn't feel depressed or doesnt drink when hes not with me, that I make him feel this way and that hurts as i know that isn't true. He just doesnt have to deal with any of it when he's in a relationship. He says he needs stability and hes stable without me. I see myself losing it with him, but cant control it.