Hello kelstar19....Welcome and thanks for posting. I'm so sorry that you're feeling alone....that's never an easy way to feel. Are you seeing a therapist. or have you seen one in the past? It sounds like you have a lot of things to deal with, including some issues with your family, which is always difficult. If you haven't seen someone you can talk to, I hope you will in the future. You don't mention this. but have you been diagnosed with depression by a physician or another health care professional ~psychologist? Take care and I hope you'll keep posting and letting us know how you're doing.....