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Originally Posted by Trippin2.0
Pray do tell dear Hamster...
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I starved my first child in utero. During the first, formative trimester of pregnancy. Sure, he was born at exactly the average newborn weight, on exactly the due date, so on the surface there was no harm done, and I did worse things to him later via emotional neglect etc. but if he ends up with a MI, I will always think that I contributed to it by depriving him of nutrients at a critical age.
I got pregnant by discontinuing the birth control pill without telling my boyfriend, but my mother knew and encouraged me (a sick relationship, I know). Then I got it touch with the father of my friend, who - the father - was an ENT doctor and I had always had ENT problems. Luckily, not anymore - let me go spray Flonase before I continue to write... So he consulted me and little by little he strayed from ENT topics. I do not have any recollection how the topic came up, but we decided that I should diet. I did not tell him that I was pregnant. I was myself ambivalent towards this pregnancy. It was like an experiment to me (sick, I know). He told me to eat raisins and other dried fruit while on a diet. I was in perfect shape, I have no clue why the diet idea even came up. But I was not a foreigner to this idea - even before, my father and his friend, who liked really thin women (I had an average build), encouraged me to diet, and I did, "successfully" to my thinness but not to my brain. One of the diets lasted for almost a year and resulted in a fainting episode, then I stopped. I also had a few binging episodes. In 2009 a notable neuropsychologist dubbed it all "Eating Disorder NOS, in remission". But going on a diet knowing that you are pregnant is the epitome of being sickly. So no, I do not think it qualifies as "stupid girl like many young people", I think it is a frank pathology.