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Originally Posted by Changeling412
Even when I've had a good day I always feel like i'm on the verge of tears. Any little thing will make my eyes well up and start leaking. I just had a great weekend with my family but most of the time, I felt like crying and I don't understand it. I was able to function most of the time even with so many people around me (I usually get very agitated and irritable when too many people are around) I laughed, I ate and I genuinely had a good time but off and on throughout the 2 days I would find myself ready to cry over some trivial detail. We had a cookout and I didn't have any BBQ sauce...most people think, ok that's a quick trip to the store, right? I was totally stressed for like 10 mins. I'm taking my meds every day like i'm supposed to and most of the time I don't feel any different. I have appointments with doc and therapist...hopefully they can come up with something that will help.
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It's been 5 years and I still feel the same way as you state in your post. I've been dealing with it on and off for over 20 years (I'm 36 now). I've recently had a child, lost my cat of 16 short years to cancer (still grieving over the loss of my dog of 6 short years to terrible people who took her life), moved to a new house (twice in the past year and a half), had a fire and lost everything I owned, been robbed THREE TIMES, had my brother try to destroy my life over jealousy and sibling rivalry, take care of my sick mother, been married, moved to the other side of the country, and been beaten black and blue by strangers while pregnant.... These are all the "reasons" I've fallen back into what I call "my pit o' despair" lol (I say it in humor as I do all other things but it is really a terrible place to be). I love my family which is the reason why I "deal" with these things with a smile on my face but really am completely torn up inside. I can cry at the drop of a dime (before the dime even hits the ground in some cases). I have no one to talk to, friend or family, and medications hasn't worked at all, yet.
I hope for your sake, you find something that helps you through these feelings. I know all too well of what you speak.
