What kind of frightens me is that I live in a kind of rural area. Its a terrible place for a single person to live and I cant afford to move. I brainwashed myself into thinking I didnt want to be with anyone and now I know I do. Its a working class area, and not the type of people I would ever date (not to talk down on anyone). If I met someone, I could easily sell my house and with a dual income move to a better area. Its just finding the right person, and I am not sure where I can go to find her. I was thinking about the online dating, but I tried that before and wasn't too successful. I know I need to focus on getting myself better, but that still doesnt replace the lonliness and emptiness I feel right now. If only I could speed up time!

I am so glad I have Sarge. He is going to be all hugged out in the next few days. I just want to find one girl and focus everything I have on her. I know its a lot, but there has to be someone who would like all the attention. I really do appreciate the kind words. It helps alot!!

Mike