Hi,
I went to see him this week and was planning on telling him about it but I couldn't say anything about it.

The thing is I have a lot of issues with rejection and anytime someone starts to get to know me or like me I freak out and start acting aloof, sometimes even rude. I've talked to him about this but he's never seen me act this way because I find it very easy to open up to him (which is probably why I'm so attracted to him).

For some reason I keep thinking he is attracted to me. So finally I go into his office and he usually wears a doctors coat and this time he didn't. He was impeccably dressed, he was wearing a cologne (he never smelled like cologne before) and the furniture in his office was rearranged.
As I sat down to start talking to him I felt very anxious. I couldn't tell him anything personal, all I could talk about was really superficial stuff. And I could feel my face was red. It was so embarrassing. He knew something was up and he started writing in his pad, I felt awful. And I don't know if he thought I was turned on or what but then his eyes were on me, very intense and he looked me up and down. And I felt very uncomfortable. I didn't want it, but at the same time I know I'm reacting the way I usually do...

Also, I think he's been checking out my website (I never gave him the link, he must have googled me) because I was talking to him about this cartoon that I made a website for and asked him if he had ever seen the cartoon and he got very nervous. Also, in the 90's I went to therapy with his father, who is also a great therapist, and at that time I had a huge crush on a guy. Well, during this therapy session I'm trying to go out more and I was thinking of going out with that guy (we are very good friends now, but not romantic) he asked me if I felt comfortable talking to him and when I said yes he got very uncomfortable and couldn't look at me.

I'm very confused. I like him a lot. Other than the cologne and stuff he's a great therapist. He does ask great questions and never tells me how I should feel, he let's me work through it... I just worry that he likes me as much as I like him and I don't know how we will be able to control ourselves! I want him so bad... I think he wants me too...
I'll talk to him about my transference the next time I see him. But I think I wont mention how I think he feels this way about me... I think that might be really weird.

How did you talk to your therapist about it? I need some examples on how to start the conversation.

Thanks for all your help!