I haven't spoken to my ex in a day and I miss talking to him. I want to know he's okay and I also want him to know I'm thinking of him and hoping he is handling things ok.

Also, selfishly, I just want someone to talk to. I want to talk to someone that understands me and who I can really talk to.

I shouldn't text him, right? He asked me not to text or contact him for a while so he can heal. I want to respect his wishes, but it's so difficult. I feel like its my only lifeline right now.

I was doing so well earlier today- went into work for the morning and then did some sewing this afternoon, until the machine broke. Now I just want to head to bed, but it's way too early. I don't know what to do.

We were supposed to go to a sporting event this Sunday- he spent a lot of money to get us tickets and I was kinda rude to him by saying I didn't feel like going. I know how much it meant to him but a few days ago,before we broke up, I told him I didn't want to. Now I'm seeing advertisements about the sporting event on tv and it's hard. I know he's gonna go tomorrow with his buddies and he's gonna be the only one there without a wife. Idk who he's even gonna take. I wonder if he's doing ok.....