Day five on Lamictal (lamotrigine)for me. No more headaches today. That was nice. In fact, no side effects today.

It is early, so I am as skeptical as can be about it being early to notice a difference, but so help me, I am. My mom called me in the middle of the night crying uncontrollably because she was stuck with a needle of an HIV patient at work. Ordinarily I would have been crying right along with her. I am crier. I cry for no reason at all and this was definitely more than "no reason." The old me would have completely fallen to pieces and this probably would have set off some serious depression. Only I didn't cry or fall apart. I was level headed and calm. No tears at all. I helped her figure out where we go from here (meds and testing for a number of months; thankfully 99.7% of the time the person stuck with the needle ends up being fine). Anyway, I am recognizing that this is DEFINITELY doing something for my moods and helping me be calmer. I am really looking forward to seeing how I do once I've been on it for a few months.

Oh yeah, and just about the time I started my self-talk in my head about maybe I am emotionally numb, I was watching a show with my daughter and when they showed a breath-taking waterfall, I got goosebumps. I'm not totally apathetic about things. I can still feel.

Not trying to convince anyone of anything...just sharing how it's going for me. <3