Mr V, we really do love you the way you are. why? because we hurt like you do so we know what you are feeling. please try to have the same compassion for yourself that you would have for someone else. there are so many people in this world that are successful despite having not fit in at school. school can be a strange place. it works for some people but not for all. the people that are successful there are not always good people or even successful once they are out. is it possible for you not to find a place where you can get involved with people that need your help with something? is there an area where you could volunteer? you are an interesting person, you have knowledge of geography, and invertebrates, and no doubt other things too. your wonderful best friend would not love you if you weren't also special. try to be kind to yourself Mr V