I have a killer stomach ache tonight and I realized I have no one to even tell or that would care, other than my parents who live out of state. No one to take ate of me if I were sick. I mean geeze- two yrs ago when I was newly divorced I was having a gal bladder attack and had to drive myself to the hospital while throwing up in my car- it was so painful I shoulda called an ambulance.

Anyhow. It made me remember that now as I lay imbed feeling really sick aknowing that I can't text or even call anyone for support or to just complain to. It's just me. In the end, it's always just me.

I mean what if something horrible happened- my neighbors would be the ones to find me, alone, on the floor of my apt- stinking up the place or something. Idl. Horrible thought, but ts true. No one cares that I have a stomach ache. It's like I don't even exist.