there is a guy i am currently interested in IRL and he happens to be a bad boy.
now im a bad girl myself so how can i say this is a bad thing??

the problem is im finding that im completely obsessed with him and he happens to do cocaine. (ive done it with him but i dont want to continue all the time with it)

i dont think he is "available" to be really there for me, and im pretty messed up myself so im not able to give 100% either.

im stuck over this cuz i REALLY want to go take a shower, call him and go out tonight and will return sometime tomorrow.
after a night of who in the world knows.

hes fun, hes cute...
and im no novice...
i know what i like.
i like exciting guys who do whatever the hell they want.

and yet somewhere inside i know i shouldnt.

so how does a bad girl like me with a whole lot of loyalty and love to give, choose between this guy who can probably be my mirror image, and solitude??