triciadrich got the word that I was searching for ~ avoidance! Sorry about my confusion, I tend to mix up words sometimes.

She asked the Q's of you that I was trying to get to.

I do agree with Rose, about trying hard to focus on you and your baby. You have support from both sides of the family, which can come in very handy! Especially in the first few months when the baby wakes frequently to feed and be changed. Now is also a great time to make meals and freeze them, so you have full meals to fall back on to keep your intake up. Have you also looked into Mom's Club, to see if there are local chapters nearby? They offer physical and emotional support to Mom's, which is a terrific resource!

http://www.momsclub.org

I hope that your distress and confusion ease soon and you're able to focus on this very special time of your life. You and your baby deserve the best! Your hub may have some deep issues going on right now, but you do need to try hard to stay present in the moment. You and your baby deserve so much better!