I just now read your post, how is your stomach this morning? I am sorry that there is no one locally for you. I don't even know what to say because nothing I could say will probably change that for you. Just know that I am sending healing thoughts your way. (When my roommate leaves on business for months at a time, I go through the same thing; i seriously had the same thought, like if I passed out on the bathroom floor, no one would notice that I was even missing.) I know where you are coming from. let us know how you are doing today...