When I went to see the p-doc that time, I chickened out of this conversation. Now I am thinking to myself: my success on the job atm is completely critical, I cannot risk messing with meds, Geodon does a great job save for this hugely crappy side effect. I cannot start experimenting with other APs. I already tried: Risperdal is the same and actually worse, it kills even erotic dreams. Seroquel gives me horrendous, torture-like akathisia AND does not help with mania a bit. Zyprexa==>WEIGHT GAIN!!! Abilify often gives people akathisia and given that I already experienced akathisia on another drug, I am probably not a good candidate. What else is out there?

If I were allowed my orgasms, though, I would not need sleep aids - I remember in my past life feeling really sleepy following a good series of orgasms.

F... this illness and its treatment suck.