Hi
l am not really sure what anyone can do to help right now, l guess l dont even know why l posted it just to get it out l suppose. Not even really sure that l am ready to address all that is in my head .............. as positive attitude is what helps!!!! erm not really anywhere near that positive place right now so it just ends up with im ok , you know day at a time etc responses. Just wanted to scream if thats ok and maybe just to say l am not ok right now, dont want any more tests, dont want to be prodded or poked or undressed or looked at even which probably doesnt make sense at all
sorry