Hello, my name is John, I started feeling very sad, the things that I liked to do it, playing videogames, guitar, movies etc, I don't feel like doing them anymore, I still do them just to pass time, I feel traped in my house, it's summer vacations and without school I don't have anything to do all day, My only "true" friends are allways playing videogames, I ussualy play with them online, but they don't wan't to go out very often, because they either live too far away or don't have money to go anywhere, I do and sometimes I even go alone, but it's still boring, my school mates they cool but I feel like they don't count me in in they lives very mutch, I would not mind going out with them but they either have diferent social circles(I don't know why is so hard to enter in them) or they simple don't lime my conpanie that mutch.

I think my depression started because of my ADD, I wan't medical diagnostic but I allways have hard time focus even in things that I like.

When I was much younger I had OCD, that I know for sure, I couldn't do anything without washing hands and all that, but I fought it and got rid of it, most of it I think, but now I'm obessesive in having a girlfriend, I feel like I'm only going to be happy if I have one, but I'm failling for the last 3 years in that, I worried about wasting my teenage years without all of that social life.

I don't have that much money to pay for a pshyciartry and for meds, and I fought OCD before and I will fight this, I will not me a loser asking for attention, but the truth is, it's getting harder and I'm feeling very bad.