Scorpiosis37, no, I have not been able to visit them or they visit me. That was the whole issue we had with Yousef - getting him here, even if just for a little bit. Had we been successful, I probably wouldn't be in this mess today.
I don't really know how I feel about this whole situation. I am still grieving from what happened with Yousef, but at the same time, I want to be able to move on and feel ready to devote my heart again. I just don't know how. I don't know how to heal or anything.... I haven't discussed this with Hakim yet like I did with Hussain, things were a little tense when this started. I hope I can talk about it with him at some point without hurting him.
My mother brought up the fact that she married my dad when she was 22 (I'll be 23 in October) and that as far as most cases go, I'm a little "behind". Also, as far as she and the rest of my family know, I've never dated in my life. My sister's in a steady relationship, I get a lot of couples getting married and or starting families that come in where I work and there are so many I see at school on a daily basis in addition to the many friends I have that are or will be getting married themselves and starting their own families - I'm happy for them, but for me, it's another twist at my heart and I don't know how much longer I can mask and just put up with the pain.