Hi sniffles,

I'm really sorry that you are feeling so isolated in this new geographic location, and I'm sorry about your grandma as well. Its not easy not being close to those who are sick. Homesickness is perfectly normal, it really is. This is just an idea, but can you go and visit her for a while? A few weeks or even a month (or two)? Your husband would probably be behind you 100% if he knew how much this meant to you.

My family made both me and my sister's life miserable too, but now since we've both moved out it really is hard. You do wind up missing your family, even if you didn't get along with them (or never did). Just a suggestion of course, but take your time with the idea of starting a family. Its a lot of hard work, and I don't think its the best idea to jump into that sort of commitment until you've spent more time together alone. (Since kids have this way of taking up all your time and its never ever quiet!)

About your previous history of anorexia or bulimia, have you talked to a doctor about it yet (in the UK I mean)? If you are concerned about your weight, a doctor can help you achieve what you want physically while still ensuring you remain healthy. If you think your meds are a problem as you think, please go to the doctor. It could be as simple as a med change or reduction, but at least a doctor can help you out.

I know it has got to be pretty darn lonely for you when your husband is at work. You're in a new place, and you don't know anyone and you don't even have any family close by. Have you thought about going out into your nearby community and joining a club or something? Even just socializing and saying hello to your neighbours might be helpful in getting rid of some of the lonely feelings. I'm sorry about your OD, but I'm glad you're 'alright' now and are getting the help and support you need. As for you 'ruining' your relationship with your husband, have you told him everything you just wrote here?? Try communicating all of this to him, it might help him to better understand how sad and lonely you are right now. If you can't talk to him, how about printing off your post and giving it to him? Chances are he'll want to talk about it, but if your husband is going to be there for you and support you, you should do it.

*********HUGS***********

And if you ever want to talk, please feel free to PM me. Sorry if any of my advice and ramblings were out of line... sometimes I have trouble giving advice.