I am sorry Stanley for what you've been through. I read the whole thing. I have PTSD from psych wards as well. I get horrible flashbacks of being in restraints and solitary confinement. I agree that if you don't walk into a psych ward messed up, you'll walk out messed up. I am terrified of them.

But I definitely think your life is worth living. The back injury isn't fair to you. I am sorry that you are dealing with the incontinence.

Lydia