Hey everyone,
This might sound kind of silly to a lot of you, and I have other things that bother me, but today this is just driving me crazy.So I have this ex boyfriend that i feel the need to rant about. I miss him and I will admit that. We broke up 5 months ago and we have been just friends, but the reason we broke up was because he turned 21 and I'm only 20 unfortunately and do not drink at all.So he said that he wasn't ready for a relationship. Last month, he asked me if i wanted to go see a movie with him.....i didn't know what he meant by that so i had just told him i was busy.Today he asked me left a message asking me if i wanted to go and see fireworks with him tonight.He had a date on the fourth of july because some girl had asked him to go to a party with him. I know because a friend mentioned it, but I feel like I should have been with him on the fourth. I'm just wondering if it might be possible that he might want to get back together with me?I feel like if I had called him back and went that a lot of feelings would have maybe came back because seeing fireworks with someone is kind of romantic and then say if he started seeing someone exclusively that would hurt me then so i didnt. I think I need to talk to him about what he wants, and I do not know how to talk to him about what he wants. He is the kind of person that changes his mind about things.So when I talk to him I have to make sure it is what he wants and that he does want me and if it was a date he wanted...but I dont even know how to bring it up to talk to him.I dont know if it is a good idea because of the fact that I do not want him to change his mind again.also if we do go back together we never really had the communication that most couples do because I'm shy. And I was just wondering if there was a way to talk to him about being more open with each other with out looking so needy. I just want to be able to bring all of this up with out looking like I want to get back together with him because I'm scared that maybe im getting the wrong signals and that is not what he wants.I just need a way to bring up what he wants and a way to tell him to make sure that is what he wants with out sounding mean and just have a hear t to heart conversation. Thank you ask questions if there is anything you need to know to make things more clear I know I'm an awful writer I'm really just kind of on a rant and needed to put things out there. I ask people and they just tell me to do whatever I want to do about it.and I don't know what I want to do about it, but I do think I need to talk to him.