Hi all

If it is ok I would like to vent for a moment. Its in regards to my husband, that I love very,very much. But there are those days, it could be the fact that tonight is a full, new moon, it could be PMS or it could be the depression. But this morning was bad. I felt that he thought i was ugly, fat and stupid. Then while I am crying my eyes out, I am thinking how stupid it is for me to think that way. Why do I let him dictate how I feel about myself.
He can just be so inconsiderate at time. It could be he is just a man. I don't know. Then theres this whole thing of turning 35. He does think that the words "I love you" means everything, love, you are beautiful, you are smart. He doesn't realize that we as women need to hear that we are the most beautiful creature in the world and that no other woman can compare. Well at least thats what I think.

I did get a call from my new therapist who had a cancellation on this monday so I am going. I just feel like a pile of dog doo.

At work we are doing this home and garden show and for the last few days I was one of the three girls decorating our booths. We had 5 spaces to decorate with our furniture. I was in charge of the western booth. My boss and the other girls said it looked great and that I did a great job especially since it was a last minute thing. So, I should feel real good about my self. But I don't. I can understand that there are times when my husband gets into a mood......mens PMS. So why should that make a difference on my mood.

Again, sorry for the ramblings, my thoughts aren't very comprehensive. Thanks guys I don't expect any answere to my questions, I just needed to get that out. Thanks for taking the time to read this. I know it was long.