Throughout my life i have made many friends, some i have held on to others i have lost contact or just due to my mum ( she makes it hard for me to meet up with friends).
Anyways i have made a few close friends but as i get older i have realised that they sideline me. I am always there for them but it seems i am just back up. They chase after all these people they claim they don't like and can never be themselves around, before me.
I decided that maybe i should make some new friends, but it is really hard, i only go up to a certain level of conversation with them, they never want to go further. I make sure i dress well and never come of desperate but no matter how i try i seem to be the unwanted one.
I always stick true to myself, i actually find it physically had to be fake and never be myself, does it mean that in order to go on in life i have to be fake?