Right now I'm really just looking for some words of encouragement. Someone I've been friends with for a few years and I have fallen completely in love. We're spending almost every day together and it's a little scary knowing that I used to drink absurd amounts before getting on antidepressants and anxiety medication. He and I drink together almost every time we see each other, which is okay because I have been in control in front of him, but I'm afraid that I'll completely lose control of my drinking or that he'll find out how much I used to drink. I'm also scared that eventually he'll have to find out that I take prescriptions for my anxiety and panic. I just started my PhD program, just put an offer in on a house, and just fell in love. I feel like I'm in control of my life but I'm hoping for some prayers and good thoughts from this community.