My bipolar onset was when I was nine. I have had heavy mixed cycling since with random, pure hypo and heavy depression episodes.

That's gone now. It's gone and I feel empty. I thought that this was supposed to be good, that I was supposed to feel good now. That there was supposed to be some glorious moment to where I was well and everything was supposed to fall into place and I was supposed to be happy!!???

But it's not. Nothing is right and I am miserable. I have explored the idea that something more is wrong, that maybe there is another underlying condition like Borderline Personality Disorder or ADD... But in the end this is what we came up with... adjustment issues.

Is this what normal life really is???!!! What is the point then?

I feel desperate. My anxiety is through the roof all the time. My irritability is bad too. I just want Pdoc to overmedicate me. I want nothing more than to be overmedicated to the point that I don't have to feel this way anymore.

Can anyone relate? Has anyone gone through this? Does it get better?