I just don't think I can go through anymore of the past. I cannot rehash any more memories that I so nicely stored away and half forgot about.

It is so difficult.
I just want to kill **HIM** for destroying my insides, my soul, my way of thinking about sex. For the fear when I am alone in a store, street, mall and there is a "shady" looking guy around.

I just want it to all go away!