I think Anika brought up some very useful info as always ..

Im Bipolar I and I rapid cycle daily and I deal with Chronic pain 24/7 am I happy about that ? Nope .. Since Medications haven't " fixed" my problems (lol) yet.

I have really been looking at my life and pretty much doing an inventory of things I CAN change and things I have NO control over.. Its been very painful at times but also has helped me to realize whether I am Bipolar or not there are simply things that are way beyond my control BUT for the majority of things they are within me to change my perception and/or responses to them .

I have decent days and down right lousy days The decent days Im learning to just enjoy and the lousy days I just think "ok not a great day, hopefully tomorrow will be better"

This way of thought is new to me .. But there are some very wise and insightful people here that I have learned so much from and I have decided to use some of there way of coping and also learn to exist with Bipolar and stop beating myself up and wishing Bipolar would go away ..

Bipolar is like anyother disease.. Asthma, diabetes, heart conditions .. they all require some kind of medicationand /or making life changes ie: diet and exercise changes etc and Im pretty certain anyone with this disorders wish there disease would go away.

I wish you luck in finding some peace and acceptance