i just posted about chad but i didnt want to go into all the details that im going through in grief and loss so im posting in here... i feel that im failing him by doing what im doing... im nothing but a slut... i mean i do stuff with guys i barely know like last night i messed with this guy and stuff and i just met him friday and i almost had sex with him but im on my period... and i almost had sex with this jeff guy a few days ago (thursday).. and yea i mean we got interuppted and i dont know what to do anymore... i cant change i dont know how and i have no body to tell me what to do... my mom trusts me and im breaking her trust every time i go with a guy i always do something stupid... i regret everything... you see ive been with 15 or 16 guys and 6 of them werent willing... i think thats why i do it... i do it for attention but im nothing but a slut to all my friends and the love of my life wont take me back bc of the way i am... im crying now and i want to do something stupid... and i might