I do put effort into not using my condition as an excuse. Every day I try.. to my own detrimite I try.... and I even overlook what should be obvious cuz I want it so bad. So I go from everything is fine, to making everything fine, and end up everything is wrong. I'm done. Thank you for your advice, but I'm done. I can't go one more day like this. I have 4:30 phone interview with pdoc to address this. I hope it's eventful cuz I'm not having another day like this. It's not all in my head either, I can't change it.