I hope you didn't take what I said as that you are using illness as an excuse. That is he farthest thing from what I was thinking. I was just trying to throw some ideas around. Some stuff that has greatly helped me.

I do understand how awful it can be, I really do, been there so many times myself. And no it is NOT in your head. I really hope your appoint goes well and that something will be able to help. Keep holding on, I know it seems hopeless but something can give way, things can improve. Let us know how your app goes. I'll keep you in my thoughts and be hoping something can turn this around for you! I just do not want anyone to suffer so much.