Thank you. My bfriend bought a bed so my dog and i can stay at his house as long as we need. I think this is as bad as you can hurt and still be alive. My bfriend never even got to meet my brother. His name was Chris. He was the kindest smartest sweetest soul. I
told my sister things will never be ok again. She feels the same. He had been sick. The doctors were going to send him to the Mayo clinic to find out why and make him better. He tested positive for cystic fibrosis which is really rare and he had neurological and circulation problems. He was just so sick and tired of suffering. But his calendar was heart breaking. A couple days in June it said
,"nobody called." For the whole month it said at the beginning, " life is Hell, " and at the end he asked, "Does God love me?"
I wish i had a time machine. I'd call him every day and tell him i loved him. I'd drive up and take him to the hospital so they could make him more comfortable. We kept trying to get him to go and he wouldnt. He already had a plan i guess.