How can I keep myself from hurting myself when I can't find any distractions, it useually works but not tonight. I'm shaking too hard to write I can barely see the computer screen right now I'm scared, i'm terrified I need something to keep busy I need to keep my mind away from what I'm longing to do. Y do people hate me how come some people love hurting others, somewhere inside I know I'm not the horrible person everyone says I am but I believe them. I try so hard to be a good friend good daughter I'm even actually telling people that something hurts when they insult me, nothing, nothing, maybe they're right. I can't stop shaking I want to stop I need an outlet thats not hurting myself. Sorry I dont even know if I'm making any sense, and sorry I guess I whine a lot.
Chippie