blur, at first I was wondering who you were and how you knew so much about me! Then I saw that you were bloom3! Your post is filled with truths but it also hurts me. I'm not going to reject it or try to get defensive, but I know that everything you suggested is way too overwhelming for me to tackle all at once. Some things I have done already. I see your point about not being in individual T but I don't feel like I can quit right now, although I brought up that possibility in the email to my T yesterday when I said we have to make some plans. I always said I was addicted to therapy. My H is right about that.

I wasn't going to quote your post but I changed my mind though it makes me cry. I have to realize that I don't have to do everything people suggest to me. I get overwhelmed and think that I do, and then think I'm a failure. So, let me read it again, sentence by sentence. I'm writing spontaneously; that's my way. I appreciate all the time you took to post this. I've wondered who are all these people who read my threads, and now I remember that you're one of them. Thank you.