Your first post of the thread was such stream of consciousness. I've tried to follow it, taken my faithful dog out for his few minutes of bedtime hyperactivity chasing rabbits, then I've come in and read it again. It's resonating strongly with me that we can't somehow claim back the time we lose whizzing round with ADHD or - for me - in lethargy and on self loathing from the losing things etc with ADD. What can we do but try to move forward? At best we may just be able to harness some of the wild horses in some creative direction. I've not yet come close to being offered medication - only informally reached the diagnosis myself, in the last few days, after having a sort of subliminal awareness of it for years and years. I don't fancy drug treatment with hypertensive side effects, if that is what you are referring to. I've got hypertension already.

Best wishes - I'm just off to take refuge in sleep, if I can. R