Thanks again everyone. You words, hugs and encouragment mean alot to me right now.
I sent emails to everyone back home this morning (my morning). I also called my mom. Luckily for me she is up way too early so I talked to her at her 5am. She never knew anything was wrong. She was very understanding and told me to come home. Of course she doesn't have money or a place for me to stay but she has hugs. She also hinted about us getting a place together. That I will have to deal with later cause I could never live with her. The one family member that I am afraid to see is my brother because he si not nice to me and I don't need it right now BUT as luck would have it, he is a little off and has put himself to a vow of silence. It's sad but I don't have to deal with him.
I am expecting some emails in the next few days and I will know about what kind of help I will get and how it will be.
As much as this hurts I know I am making the right choice.
I was invited by a friend here to stay at her place and use her car while she is out of town for the next two weeks. She also said I could stay as long as needed. What a godsend for me. I will go tomorrow evening and stay there.
I am scared and I know this is going to be the hardest few weeks in my life but I will be okay and I am not alone.
I haven't told my friend Betty yet. She saved my life and has been such a good friend. She also needed a friend and we just clicked. I ahve never known anyone like her. I am hoping to tell her soon but I hate that I have too. I will miss her dearly.
Well enough for now. Thank you again fro being here for me. I really need it right now.
I will still have access to a comp so I will keep in touch.
Heidu