Is it selfish to join and dig right in to it? I just need someone. I was screaming inside all day today. I wanted to reach out to someone, anyone and then once again realized that there is no one there to get it.

As tears fill my eyes right now, I am questioning my feelings, trying to make sense of this evil breath inside of me that is basically chocking me to death.

I have never felt like I have needed someone so bad, when I am surrounded by people that love me. But it's not the same. I have so many wonderful things and yet, I still can't believe the feelings that rush through me. It's like I have no control. None! I don't understand!