my guess is that this is where talk therapy or CBT would really come in useful. Since you were diagnosed at 9, you (like many of us who are not bipolar) might wonder where the illness stops and regular life begins.

All of us have trouble and can feel the way you feel about life. I think is about developing coping skills and new thought processes to replace old unhealthy (or involuntary ones). Now that your medications are helping to stablize your moods, CBT and talk therapy can help you learn new methods of how to cope.

Unfortunatley, life is a little boring for the rest of us I think honestly this is all kind of normal. What you are going to be free to do now is make more free willed choices in your life ....free from so much emotion. I think, I think that is the goal of stability.

We all have ups and downs all day, I think stability is the ability to make rational decisions despite how you might feel, and being able to get through and deal with consequences either way.

I could just see this all being really confusing if you were diagnosed as a child. The way you 'feel' could be more normal than you think. It's all in how you learn to behave, I believe and I think therapy can help you sort it out.

Behaviors eventually become beliefs, and affect your feelings. It's all related. We have more control over the behavior part and if your stable it's probably a great time for therapy.

I know i'm not bipolar and maybe not welcome. But I am a regular person who has struggled with depression and a dysfunctional family.

I think we are all more similiar than we think, at least we can relate to the feelings.